BLACK AND BLUE
Good Monday Morning!!! I had a very joyful weekend, and hope you did too! I got to spend a lot of time with my grand baby, which was total medicine for the soul! I cannot get enough of him!!!
I am like a child waiting on Christmas morning right now. Thursday, God willing, is my last chemo treatment and it cannot get here fast enough!!! I have been looking at my calendar since August 1st, thinking November 7th would never come. The months have gone by so slowly, but it’s finally here! On the floor where my chemo is administered, next to the nurses station, sits a giant bell. Everyone that has finished their last chemo treatment rings the bell to signify/celebrate the finish line. I am going to ring the hell out of that bell!
Now let’s talk about fluff! Remember that sale I told you all about on Shopbop a few weeks ago? I scored a few things, and this skirt was one of them. I am obsessed with scuba or neoprene fabric right now. It just kind of hugs you, and is so flattering! This skirt is by Clover Canyon. I am usually not a huge print girl, but am crazy for this one. I am still loving black and blue together. It is so chic! Actually, you will be seeing it again in another post.
Not crazy about how the wig was looking. It was sprinkling and really windy when the photos were taken. I know how my own hair (when I had it) used to behave in that kind of weather, but had no idea how wearing someone else’s would react. It did not react well. Honestly, I have not worn it enough to know how it wants to react. Since I have a while before I can go without something on my pea head, I am wearing it more to get used to it. I am going to admit something… I have not let anyone (yes, even my husband) see me bald. I know it sounds crazy, but I don’t want him or my children having that image in their head. I don’t even like looking at me that way. It’s my way of dealing with it. It’s just a constant reminder of cancer, and I don’t want to think of myself that way. Plus, when I see myself, I think I look like a thin Uncle Fester. Just need a lightbulb in my mouth!
Photos by: Mary Summers
November 4, 2013 @ 2:37 pm
Praising God that the end of your chemo is almost here, and you can start your “grow back” period. You might remember that’s where I was when Cacky died. My thin, straight blond hair came back coarse, kinky curly and almost white. But it was hair, and I was thankful for it. It stayed that way for exactly one year and then returned to my baby fine, straight hair but still almost white. Vowed never again to put any chemicals on my hair. There is life after chemo, and it is GOOD! God bless you, Cathy. Love you
November 5, 2013 @ 2:23 am
Praise God is right!!!! I have some sprouts coming up, and there are about 3 colors that I can tell. Everyone says it grows back curly, and I will be thankful for anything as well! I will be putting color back into it!!! Can’t wait to get my life back, but have learned so much! Love you!!!
November 5, 2013 @ 12:44 am
I think I have often heard the phrase “bald is beautiful” or something like that, but bald or not you are still a beautiful lady. Since Thursday is you last treatment, Charlie should celebrate his birthday with you. My dear niece, you amaze me with your wit and humor, and I know there has to be hundreds more that agree with me. Remember we love you and we pray for you as do your blog fans and friends and family.
November 5, 2013 @ 2:27 am
You are so sweet! I am so looking forward to Thursday, but dreading it at the same time. I have become increasingly exhausted, and know that it will take a while to get my stamina back. Will start radiation in about 3 weeks. Thank you for your prayers and for being such a support! Love you!!!
November 5, 2013 @ 9:15 pm
I am so happy is only a couple of days away. I can’t imagine how I would react if it were happening to me, but I know I would want to have the strength and grace you’ve demonstrated…as for your hair, it really looks pretty, AND I bet you look beautiful bald too, although I get your point. I am so grateful that you have shared your experiences and given us a chance to try and understand your journey…I’m hoping Thursday gets here very quickly as well!! Will be thinking about you and praying and listening for the bell all the way over here in GA.
November 14, 2013 @ 4:37 pm
Thank you for this comment, Kerri! I appreciate the sweet thoughts, but bald is not great on this egg head!!!!! I just hope that I can help someone going through either cancer or something else, and that God gets the glory! Hope you did hear that bell! Love to you!